Hello friends, happy Sunday to you all, hope you guys are doing fine? Am kinda better now, I don’t even have a choice but to stay happy for my own well being, i never wanted to share this here but for the sake of the freeneedling contest i decided to share with you guys my feelings and what am passing through emotionally.
I had a friend back then in school, we were just friends but moving forward we slowly started liking each other’s company, She loves staying around me and I do love staying close to her too and she was fun to be with so we gradually fell in love her name was “Anita” but I love calling her “ani”, I starting loving her so very much, I tried my best to make sure she’s comfortable, I offered help in every way I could,financially and otherwise I try as much as possible to make her happy and everything went smoothly between us.
I really put in all my effort to love and make sure she’s happy even my friends always do complain that am over loving her that I should slow down in case she decides to break my heart so I’ll be able to get over it and move on but I didn’t listen in my case I think it wasn’t only love but I was just too opposed about her but everything was fine between me and her until last week when I noticed that she’s stop calling and texting me even when I call she doesn’t pick nor reply my messages and I kept trying to find out what I did wrong I even reached to her sister if I could get information of what I did wrong but even her was not responding to me so I find a way to track her down on Monday and I pleaded with her that what so ever I did wrong (which I don’t even know) she should forgive me that am deeply sorry for everything but I was really surprised at myself apologizing for something I don’t even know, but she ignored me and left, next day I saw her again coming back in the evening I kept pleading with her and she replied me saying “it’s over between us” just like that was shocked to my bonds that moment I went blank I was so shocked that I couldn’t say a word my mouth was open and my body was shaking, I was cold, i was freeze inside, I can’t even explain how I was that moment and she left, I didn’t even know how I got myself back home after that, I was so broken on the inside because I really loved Ani so much, she meant much more to me but facing the reality heartbreak sucks! It’s painful. Sometimes But if there’s one thing I’ve learnt, it’s that I needed to experience that pain!
I want to share with you a quote I read a long time ago. I’m not sure who it’s by, but it gives me goosebumps every time I read it:
“Be thankful for every heartbreak, for they were planned. They come into your life just to reveal another layer of yourself to you, and then leave. Their purpose is to shake you up, tear apart your ego a little bit, show you your obstacles and addictions, break your heart open so new light can get in, make you so desperate and out of control that you have to transform your life. And you do”
This quote has really opened my eyes and it made me stay active and face the reality that Ani was gone but even till today I still miss her so much so hearing this freeneedling contest I decided to share my emotions with you guy at lease to ease myself of the burden so to conclude my input on this contest I want to share the cafe work I made, actually I made a cafe indicating that I “still love Ani “ I just wish she could come back to me one day!!!
Thanks guys for reading and sharing with me in this difficult time cause no matter how busy I get and try to let go I still feel that pain inside.
