In the last 24 hours, I have done a lot. There was work, making dinner and spicy snails for my neighbours, listening to music, and sleeping. I would talk about all of them, but the instructions insisted on one.
I woke up at 7:00 a.m. to prepare for work, and the lyric ‘I don’t wanna go there’, popped up in my head, causing me to sing ‘please don’t judge me’ out loud. I jumped out of bed and hurried to put on my Bluetooth speaker (it is really rare to have light early in the mornings in this country), connected to my Apple Music, and searched for the song ‘Don’t judge me’, by Chris Brown and played it, and trust me, I really screamed the chorus out loud while carrying out my morning routine.
Image credit is mine
Is there a specific reason why I chose this song first out of all the others that I know? Nope, not really, but each day brings a certain music for me; it could be from any genre. Music helps me make my morning routines less boring. And also, I think that I chose that song because of a decision I made, which I am questioning. I am in a kind of relationship that I have never imagined myself in, because if you had asked me years ago, I would have rejected the idea.
The next song suited me well: ‘Intentions’ by Justin Bieber featuring Quavo got me feeling all shades of attractive and loved by a certain someone.
‘Karma’ by Summer Walker played next, and it got me wondering if I would be punished by all the decisions that I have made to this day that have hurt people, knowingly or otherwise. Would karma really dance for me? Or would my slate of past misdeeds be wiped clean if I asked for forgiveness and changed my ways? Well, only time will tell.
‘Umbrella’ by Rihanna, featuring Jay-Z, took me back to 2007/2008. I spent that time learning the song and singing it in different parts: treble, alto, and tenor. I also copied the entire choreography danced by Rihanna in that song, although my ankles aren’t so flexible. 😅
Screenshots of my playlist this morning
‘No love’ by August Alsina took me back to the reason why I chose the first song. It is crazy how life is; we don’t always get what we want, and if we do, we don’t get it how we want to get it. It is never straight-forward. Sometimes you feel like the universe is just trying to set you up for drama and hurt.
‘Overtime’ by Chris Brown came next. It had me feeling like I was on the right path relationship-wise. It reminded me that, indeed, I did deserve better from a partner or a potential partner. I deserve to be treated and handled with respect and the utmost care.
The last song I would talk about in this post is ‘You’ by Jacquees. I thought that it would be rather nice to have someone who would be with me and all my attributes, good or not. Despite this, I still think I should never stop trying to be a better person. I forever want to be a safe place for my partner.
Lots of other songs played from my speakers until I left home for work; I just chose to discuss the first seven, as I paid more attention to them than the others except for ‘Megatron’ by Nicki Minaj. 😊
It is just music, you’ll say, but songs have a way of setting up the mood for the day, easing your fears, or helping you cope with stress. Today, though, it set up the mood for an uneventful day.
