The only thing am now used to is loneliness, my happiness could only been drawn from the sunrise with the hope of a new day and when is dark after sunset it's me to my own warmth, my own comfort, me alone. Emotional swings was never even a case for me, it was like anytime I tried to be happy my sorrows always have the overpowering edge, my fears as tho they have hears to listen to me and act as due,it was more like this ever since a sickness whose diagnosis called for a treatment which kept eating through my parents whole wealth and then took them along side,that whole event has determined my life as even now that my only uncle has decided to blame me for the death of is only son and wife after they had a car crash in a car he had bought for me as a birthday present even I though I felt he did it to help me be happy and forget about my parents death,in his words "Shawn how long do u intend to destroy my lineage hmm, after u had killed ur parents u now came to my household with ur wedlock" I didn't know if to be angry because of the some much pain I saw in this eye with tears drops, I had never seen him cry not even at my parents funeral, I had to leave.
