Hi Serena!
I'm sending you many hugs over as well!
Sorry, I haven't been around for a long time now, but so much happened and I'm rarely finding time to check in on Steemit/Hive.
I can imagine that it's hard sometimes, to deal with communities and their dynamics but at the end of it all, just keep to your true self. A "normal" doesn't exist anyways. You and only you define what normal is, and you shouldn't be ashamed or whatever to deviate from that. Much love and all the best, Tom <3