That's such a shame about your dad. Your memories conjure up emotions in me that I am so very blessed to have. My dad wasn't the at every game type by any means but there was always two worn out patches of grass in the front lawn from playing catch.
I'm happy that you've turned a negative into a positive. I also want to say I can't fathom anyone taking their inabilities to be there for you beyond this realm.
Of course I can't say with absolute certainty but in my brushes with the affair I can say transitioning is a humbling experience that puts even the most blurred perceptions into crystal clear focus..
I'm not trying to get all Dr.Phil here though and i can only imagine the drive you have to prove to him that that you're doing damn fine now.
From what I can gather you're salt of the Earth and if your pa not being a model father played a prominent role in creating the man you are today I can only say I feel better knowing that someone like you exists and won't make the same mistakes..
Much love man
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