I understand your frustration, however you are not being censored or losing anything. With respect, I suggest you take some more time to really understand how this blockchain works before making claims of censorship and things of that nature. Nothing can be censored on the HIVE blockchain. Although it is possible for 3rd party websites to hide posts from their front ends, your posts will always be on chain and no one can change that. Everyone has the right to like or dislike content on HIVE in order to allocate funds from the reward pool as they see fit including yourself. You should not be afraid to downvote something if you think those funds should go back to the reward pool. This is your right as a stakeholder in the HIVE network. The strength of your vote is based on the stake you hold in the network. The value of your posts are likely to fluctuate as more accounts engage with your posts.

My advice is to focus on creating quality content, staying consistent and don't think so much about rewards.