"Self acceptance is paramount" was a phrase that came to me while meditating once. Thank you for posting this. It was very informative. Your life can begin again today and slowly distance yourself from the nastier stuff from the past. DTube has zero censorship, so you can pretty much do what you like. Thank you for sharing. It's often difficult to talk about the darker aspects of our past. I only came across your account a few days ago, but I can see you're a pretty decent person.

There's a tv show called Red Dwarf. It's a British Scifi comedy. In it, there's an episode called Dimension Jump, in which it's revealed that there's a parallel universe version of one of the main characters who is usually very self serving and cowardly. The parallel version is called 'Ace Rimmer' and is a winner in every sense of the word. To me, it's someone I can invoke when I want to raise my spirits or bring out the best in myself.

Do you have a higher self / role model you invoke to help you when you need a little boost?