Where I have been very weak in mathematics since childhood, how can I understand such a difficult calculation called life? Right now most days of life seem meaningless. No one can explain this horror of life. No one can really tell me. One dark afternoon covered with clouds, I saw through the window the sun setting in the western sky. Where the whole city is empty in lockdown. There I noticed that thousands of people had gathered in the alleys of Tolarbagh. Hat-bazaar has been banned from opening till 9 am due to lockdown. Vendors in the area have been busy selling goods there since 6 am.
I have never been confined to four walls since my childhood, I have always played in the open field. Life in the village was different. I used to go to the fairs of the village with my cousins and run away with the joy of the fair. When I was kid I used to go to the fair with joy, because I used to get various delicious sweets and toys from there. But now the occasion of life is different which is why the occasion of going to any place is not just joy. Sometimes I think everything in life is confusing. We all revolve around an imaginary circle of life. Dreams, hopes can become the real reason we are living life. Parents, brothers and sisters, everything is in our life as fondness. Everyone has to leave the world of this false bond of life. Yet it is really difficult for us to accept this. We all have to leave, that is the strict rule of nature. None of us are outside of this rule.
Life is beautiful but it is very difficult to survive. But every day when I wake up and see the sunlight with my eyes, I feel lucky. Because everything is by the grace of the Creator. It is very easy to end this short life of ours. It is impossible for everyone to survive in this difficult battle of life and make their own existence. Many say that it takes a lot of courage to commit suicide. But I'm always thinking the opposite. Survival in this life is perhaps the most courageous of all. Suppose you ever decide you will give up your life. But my question is have you ever wondered what will happen then? People close to you may cry for a week. Those who disliked you will regret it and forget you the next day.
But if you present yourself in a new way in front of everyone by creating a position of your own in this difficult life. Then you can help the people that are your dearest to fulfill their dreams. People who disliked you for a while will put your name first on the list of favorites. I have often felt one thing in college life. It was hard when a friend failed the test, but it was more violent when the same friend did well on the test. In the same way, the thoughts of others like me are no exception. People will suffer more if you succeed in life than if you give up.