I woke this morning, this year same as the last
A day of joy, the eve of Christmas
I woke this morning with the pain I can't feel
This kind of wound takes the longest to heal
I've made it one year farther
But still all I want
Is to see my father.

This time of year is hard for a lot of people myself included now. It was almost poetic that my dad passed Christmas eve. It was the day we celebrated Christmas with his side of the family. I was always with him that day. He passed at about 5am, and last year was the first Christmas eve we were apart although it felt like a blur. This year is technically the second year but is still so fresh.

I want the rest if you to know that although you may be upset, depressed, grieving.

It's okay to grieve

I also want you to know that its okay to be happy and excited for the holidays even if you are grieving. Fortunately we as humans are complex beings capable of multiple emotions at the same time as long as you allow yourself. I am excited for Christmas and love seeing the joy on my childrens face in anticipation, but also deeply grieving.

It's okay to be happy

For all of you hurting this season. I stand with you. You are not alone. If you are depressed, talk to someone you trust. Where I live... Suicide is a huge issue this time of year. Please talk to someone, please get help.