Honestly I don’t know how everyone does it because I am tired and it killing me; am fed up of falling and falling again. It just like this emotions is not meant for me.
You really want to know what this is leading to;
The fear of Relationship.
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Thanks for the #Pob-wotw; making us talk about companion and I saw so many advices but the truth is I am scared of falling again. It like love is not for me because it keep bringing the emotions of Trepidation.
Honestly I don’t know how everyone does it because when it comes to me it doesn’t last for long and the love becomes painful.
- No more shading of tears.
- No more senselessness.
- No more external responsibilities.
- No mind riots.
I tried to develop another focus to divert my mind set to avoid trepidation. But no matter what I run too; what I see everywhere around me is trepidation and when I run away it catches up faster than I run.
I am really fed up of trepidation in my life. I just want to live normal like every other man. Most times I wish there’s always someone who knows it all and could tell me how to process it all because I am fed up of trepidation emotions.
RESULT.
When it finally happens I think the way out is Understanding between each other and the trust. Am not perfect and I don’t need perfection I haven’t found someone I understand so it can be very stressful. Probably I might not get involved in any mutual relationship anymore.
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The hope still remains that one day I would be out of this stage and progress to another challenge of life. Maybe it just time to give things like trepidation a fresh start and an opportunity to learn more about people and try to take one step after the other.
I would just start following the rules of life;
- Rule 1: Have fun.
- Rule 2: Follow rule one.
This way I believe it would free the mind from all this emotional stress and insecurities about this and just move forward.
Thanks you.