What a rough journey.
We are only as strong as our teammates. We can only realize our teammates when we want to accept the fact we are who we are because of our guardians and God. If we seek God's grace that is the only way we can be saved. I sought why? Then I sought God. When I found out how deep the well goes globally I realize I am powerless to know the true depths of God's grace. But the human effort is deep - and I extend gratitude for that towards humanity for giving me a reason to believe there will be some good for this world I will live to see.
I have always been able to handle the suffering mentally because I can focus forward on the mission of it working out for everyone as well as forgiving those who have done me wrong by not dwelling on the past. The past may have been confusing, but we can always be sorry for our own transgressions, knowing in our hearts we've never struck anyone - never - never hurt anyone or fought back unless out of pain and confusion with words we didn't mean. We can be completely honest with our friends and stand before them true to who we are and realize they will stand by us no matter what. I have those kind of friends. I'm sure I have a family that doesn't quite understand me but that can be expected. No one is going to do the research I've done and I won't impose my beliefs from that research on anyone.
No one may know what I'm saying, but I may still say I am grateful for those who have supported me, and I'm sure, guarded me. Whether it be from myself or for the commonwealth of man and woman alike, I have no problems. Just faith and a closeness to God to get me through to the other side of this all. I don't need anyone besides myself and my faith, but still, I have friends. I will always be grateful and indebted to them for their friendship and loyalty.
I suppose there's a lot of documents that need to be sorted out in public view before we learn just how much people care about one another. So for now, an allegory to ponder:
Allegory of George III of the United Kingdom and John VI of Portugal, by Joaquim Carneiro da Silva (1810). It is accompanied by a poem:
"Immortal trophies George's throne surround:
Here Envy crush'd, and there Ambition bound
Braganza's line by Gratitude combin'd
Clears fast to Brunswick's ever closely twin'd."
