hi :-) ok maybe I misunderstood one of your comments...on a reread I get that you probably meant homo as in homosapiens lol... I did wonder... I was just trying to clarify...but thank you for clarifying for me... I do sometimes find myself very much aware of observing my life as it plays out. I feel like a fly on the wayll watching myself watch myself and others in conversation... At these moments life feels surreal. I feel at once very conscious and aware and simultaneously detached. This only happens when I find myself in situations that do not feel comfortable to me... for whatever reason... perhaps unfamiliarity, perhaps out of my depth or simply just I don't really want to be there in that moment... then things slow down 100%... and my analytical brain takes over but then my own responses feel more robotic and contrived, less natural and fluid. I feel like I start to see everyone playing out roles themselves... acting if you like. It's all a bit strange... but in some ways feels like I broke through and discovered a secret about life and living... !ALIVE