Keep doing what you are doing... authentic expression is invaluable. But be gentle with yourself... if you really are not up to it... don't. Always remember that you define your own rules and limits. And there is no need to feel pressured into a less healthy lifestyle or attitude to life simply because those around you can't handle things. Keep doing you, and let them keep doing them. I hope you get your happy back soon... perhaps don't push yourself too much on the lows, and then the highs may come again sooner than you expect. !PIZZA