To my best friend, my sister, my ride or die. 
@lydemarks, I apologize for leaving, leaving you to handle things on your own. Leaving you to deal with being a first time traveling workers wife. We made the promise to be there for each other, to lean on one another, and I left. I let my anxiety get the better of me. I've struggled with the pain of letting you down. Struggled knowing I hurt you. I deserve how you've handled it and I've deserved any "that bitch" conversations with others you are close to. The minute we got on the road I worried the whole way that it would come between us, but only time will tell. I miss you terribly, I wish you were here with us. You are a huge part of my life and I miss seeing your face and you bitching at me for random stupid shit I do. I hope you forgive me before I go up like dorothy in this hick ass town in Alabama. I love you!
