My today Sunday Service
Today, as I walked into Sunday service, I felt a mix of gratitude and heaviness. Gratitude because God kept me through another week, and heaviness because I know that not every heart that stands at the altar is truly surrendered. Today, I saw people singing, dancing, lifting hands yet deep inside, some carry bitterness, wickedness, gossip, envy, and deceit. And for a moment, I asked myself, How many of us come before God pretending?
How many of us hide behind worship?
It hurts to witness people act holy in church but live with darkness in their hearts. They sing the loudest, they demonstrate with energy, they know how to act spiritual but their hearts are far from God. Today reminded me that the altar exposes everything. No matter how well someone performs, God sees the hidden parts. God sees the wickedness we try to cover with hymns, hallelujahs, and fake smiles.
But in all this, I made a decision I refuse to be one of them.
I refuse to be a hypocrite in the presence of the God who already knows my heart. I refuse to act holy while carrying things that do not honor Him. Today’s service reminded me to check myself, not others. To look inward and ask. Is my heart clean? Am I truly worshipping, or am I just performing?
At the altar today, I prayed for sincerity. I prayed for a heart that matches my words. I asked God to remove anything in me that does not reflect him, pride, anger, hidden grudges, silent envy, anything pretending to be harmless but poisoning my spirit. I told God, make me real. Make me genuine. Make me true to You.
Today, I choose transperancy
Today, I choose purity.
Today, I choose to worship in spirit and in truth.
Because I do not want to be counted among those who stand at the altar with wicked hearts. I want God to look at me and see honesty, obedience, and a heart that is learning even if imperfect.
And so I end this chapter with a simple prayer
Dear Lord, cleanse my heart. Keep me from hypocrisy. Let my life reflect You, not just my worship. Create in me a clean heart, and renew a right spirit within me.
AMEN
