I reckon diluted enough to be okay :)

Well unless there's something you're not telling us you didn't die so XD

I think I am still in the furious arena.

Sounds like it sometimes. I don't think that's necessarily a bad thing, just keep using that rage for good ;D

_{at least that's what I'm telling myself to do when I feel it coming up again x_x}

terrible at selling myself

Not just "nowadays" unless you're counting at least two decades back. This is the exact reason I could never get a job "normally" (ie applying and getting an interview and being impressive enough to get hired).