Irrational anxieties are stupid and I hate them. I remember when the kids were little I developed severe driving anxiety which made our excuresion based homeschooling an interesting experience (and there were quite a few times where I just gave in and stayed home because it was ridiculous and extreme to the point where I absolutely KNEW for FACTS we were ABSOLUTELY going to get into a car accident and die). Then one day when they were all in their teens it just...disappeared as suddenly as it had appeared.

I still hate driving to this day but for completely different reasons (tactile, I hate vibrations since probably childhood, though it seems I was a lot more tolerant of it in my youth than now).

Was that your view while getting the infusion? Definitely beats a wall :D

Hope smallsteps is feeling better soon.