not like it should be used at least.
I keep telling myself i need to change that - but procrastination.
It's been a rough fucking year.
Covid, wife lost her job , we got evicted.
Our son (w/recovering traumatic brain injury) was having probs with his fiance and she kicked him out,
so we got three of us living in a 26' trailer.
All i want to do is just fucking sleep - for like a month would be nice.
We got lucky and found some nice people to let us park our trailer on their property.
It's about a 20 minute drive to town where the stores are - and we gotta empty our porta potty every 3 days or so.
It just seems like even the easiest daily shit eats all the time away.
I can think of a thousand better ways to spend my days than working for min wage to make some other prick fucking filthy rich.
The shit part about liking technology and trying to be a part of - it's so FUCKING expensive - HUGE barrier to entry.
All I got now is waiting around waiting for one of my lowball coins to moon.
I haven't been able to work for like 2 years - my wife's job (apt/mgr) really got in the way of that.
I was the maintenance guy but I hurt my back and had to quit - but every time there was the smallest problem i would get fucking interrupted from coding to fix a fucking broken pipe.
Her bosses just fucking rode her ass for 2 years till they fired her - fucking pricks.
It was a shitty low pay job for slum lords anyway - fuck it.
But now all my stuff is in storage - it's not like we can run a server in this tiny trailer on a 15 amp power circuit.
I had a guy from one of my old projects email me to start project again - I just can't fucking concentrate to write code in this leaky ass trailer.
We got rain/wind storms coming - my wife is such a worrier - she want's to spend money we don't have on a hotel - FML - i can't win.
I'm gonna try to write some JS - this laptop overheats if i try anything to intense - working with big data definitely out of the picture for the time being.
I've been trying for 20 fucking years to change career from dumb ass carpenter to computer guy but fuck me,
when you don't make enough $$$ you get to be evicted and homeless and go right back to dumb ass carpenter to make a buck so you're not homeless.
It's been 20 fucking years of a losing battle - i fucking gave up and filed for disability.
I mean, if you can't make enough money to stay housed you're fucking disabled right?
I would try to make videos but it would just be an old man rambling about how fucked up his life is - who's gonna watch that shit ??? probably nobody LOL
OK, that's it for today - sometimes after I get shit out I feel better and get shit done - let's see how it goes.
