You are actually doing amazing right now, ang hirap ng case mo coz even tho may bayad na ang tuition, but the other expenses are really big din. I remember tuloy the time during college days. Ang hirap humingi ng Pera Kay mommy coz lagi nyang bukambibig "gastos na naman." Then gagatungan pa nong partner nya saying na ang daming gastos, even though nag college din sya so she knows how magastos it is in college. Aigoooo. But anyways, maybe its still better na di mag expect. And your cousin is d real anak so I think its right lang na ibigay nya yong deserve ng anak nya. And i want to say na alisin ang envy pero even I have that, di maiiwasan na mag compare or whatever. So... Good luck and sana marami pang opportunity dumating sayo that can help u rn. Fighting!