I couldn't even say it, I tried again and
How many people are living in this world with so much pain in their chest but no one gets the opportunity to see their pain because everyone is busy. At some point, the officer will be able to give his people something. Maybe the rest of his life will end in this busyness. At some point, he will disappear from this world. Some pain only stops in the eyes. It is foolish to express all the pain to people. Some pain stops in our eyes which fall as tears. Even if we want to, we cannot get out of there because I am a very stupid person. I have tried many times and I have cheated myself but I have never thought of cheating anyone. I have stored my pain inside myself but I have not had the opportunity to show it to anyone yet because some people have broken me from inside. I will explain my pain to them. The person whom I considered my only person has hurt me more.
I don't want to explain anything to anyone, I don't want to show anything to anyone, I just want to quietly finish my insides because at the end of the day, one thing is true, even if it is given, you have to accept that people only know their interests, whether it is your family member or your dearest person. When they need you, they will talk to you very nicely. When their need is over, they will behave so badly with you that you don't have to reveal it to anyone. People break down without shouting, silence also says a lot. It is never possible to explain everything to people by shouting. You see, when your other half, whom you have accepted as the most beloved in this world, needs something, I am not talking about everyone, but about some people.
Not all relationships can be tied to rhythm, relationships remain as they are, which have no name. If you try to tie all relationships to rhythm, at the end of the day you have to suffer a lot of this pain. If you could accept it, maybe everything would have become beautiful, but we humans cannot accept it, it is difficult to adapt. Someone just tolerates everything silently from their place and everyone makes fun of them. Silent love is a crime in today's society. The more you remain silent, the more people will neglect you. This is not my story alone. After knowing the stories of many people's lives, I have been able to understand this thing well. They will like to take your trust but it will never be possible for them to protect your trust.
We humans are very shy and always try to keep our close people a little closer. But with time, those people maintain a distance from us and sometimes it is seen that some people move away so much that we may even be afraid to express it. Some close people are better at a distance. It is better to maintain a distance even between close people because if you are too close, there is a lot of doubt in the mind and this doubt is not love but turns everything into a fight. It is not that you have to be close to everyone. You can be better from a distance too. You can be better from a distance too, but never try to keep your close people too close. Maybe you will tolerate it for a day or two but with time you will definitely understand everything. Actually, someone is hurting you and you have to accept that who is not hurting you.
We constantly think about keeping everyone well. We think that if our family members are well, we will be well at the end of the day. But as far as I have seen, while trying to keep everyone well, I have become helpless myself. While trying to keep everything in order for everyone, I have forgotten when I combed my hair. I have forgotten that I need to put some oil on my head. But while thinking about everyone's well-being, I have forgotten when I ate. And finally, one thing came to my mind. No one asked me how well I am. No one asked if I ate. No one asked why your hair is messy. No one asked if your legs hurt. It takes a person to ask these questions. But I don't have that person anymore.
Emotions are something that will kill you bit by bit, you may not understand it at first, but later you will not be able to get out of it. Not all emotions can be explained, but the feeling remains in your chest. You feel that the inside of your mouth is bursting, you feel how you feel, you feel that nothing is happening to you, you are trying to forget everything and be good, but you can't. I have become so captivated by emotions that it takes a long time to get out of there, you can't get out of there. What is not said also has a language, as I said before, it is better not to say everything, to keep some things secret within yourself. Being silent does not mean that there is nothing. There is a different kind of joy in being silent even after knowing everything, because I have realized that people want to hurt me, but still I try to hide myself from that pain. Sometimes silent love is also the truest. There is joy in watching everything silently, there is truth in silent love because I feel it without any words.
Not all feelings can be explained through feelings, and it will never be possible to explain them to anyone. Some feelings only live "behind silence." Because it is not the time to tell anyone, only in silence, behind silence, a feeling of love can be felt, even if one wants to, but no one has the strength to express it to anyone. I saw it at the end of the day and understood that the story of silent love is beautiful. Nothing else can be more beautiful in this world.
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