Dear Paul
I'll give you an advice my father used to say to me every time i had doubts about things in life ...

"Have Faith on God's plans and His Divine Economy."

I didn't get it at the first time , i was yeah Ok! Whatever.. Here is how i understand it and realize it..

My Father at the age of 41 had his 1st open heart surgery, at 45 he had his 1st stroke by the age of 67 he had his 12th srtoke & every time he was fighting and coming back, yes with some little scars(*) from the tough fight but he was coming back home.

Once a doctor saw his brain scan exam and he was like :
-"This brainscan can't be yours this brain image is from at least a 140yrs+ old guy"

(His flaws ( *) after the recovery from the strokes he couldn't not speak fast or when his was very stressed he was missing the train of thought , he couldn't tinker small things and believe me he had some heavy ones as well !

At 20th of September 2010 my father had his launch and gone for his evening nap, it was the time God decide the time has come for him to move on to the Kingdom Of Heaven.

You are a fighter Paul i'v seen you only twice but from what @stan has said about your temperament you can do it.
We have to think bigger , Pinky , reprise
don't we ?

Get well soon
Lots of love
@Rouketas & @Loveisintheair