I'm very late aren't I?

I have some pretty good moments. I am worried that I really don't know how to be happy. At 66 I might be running out of time. It's all so confusing.

I've been listening to Ram Dass and his life. Him and Timothy Leary were the Harvard guys who went on the acid trips and later spiritual quests. It was all a part of my childhood and and and. How do I make sense of what I want to say? There's so much there. I missed it all. He's a wonderful speaker. Ahhh I can't get anywhere with what I want to say :)