Hi yusha! There is so much I wanted to say to you, so much love that filled my heart the moment I knew you existed. Even though I never got to hold you in my arms, you were already a part of me. You were already loved, already cherished, already a miracle. From the first flutter of hope to the last moment of goodbye, you changed me forever.
I dreamed of meeting you, holding you in my arms, us smiling together, me seeing your first steps. I was happy seeing you at least in my dream. You were happy, you're playful, and I'm sorry Im not being by your side right now. I may lose you in my arms but not in my heart.
Sometimes I wonder, What your face will be, what are the color of your eyes, whose smile you would have been carrying. but no matter what you are, my love will never be change for you, I missed you so much, a lot.
I want you to know that your life had meaning. Even though it was brief, but it was powerful.You taught me how deep love can go, how fierce a parent’s heart can be, even before birth. You taught me that love does not need a lifetime to grow it only needs a moment.
Losing you was like losing a piece of my soul. It's a pain that no one can truly see,it hurts so much, yet it lives in every breath I take. I still speak your name in my heart, even if the world never knew it. You were real. You mattered, You were mine.
PS: Yusha was an unborn child, He was with me for only 3 months. He was loved, He was cared, It is just sad that he is not for me. But life must go on, people come and go and so is Yusha. Let's not make the flow of life threatened us not to live happily. Still, let's be happy and be grateful and love the people whom we have right now! mourning is done , let's just keep them in our hearts!
