Oh beautiful man. Seems you just have to live it. When I was at my worst it didn't matter what I took and despite knowing what I could do to help, nothing worked and nothing helped- aside from what YOU said about depleted chi - liver? So I quit drinking and coffee (again) and ate as best I could, but the real change came when I finished that bloody job. I am NEARLY energised again. Nearly. Yet still feel... ennui? I have switched off the news which helps enormously. Perhaps, god forbid, it is our age.

I do think steady hours might make a difference - here's hoping for that. I think you yourself know what it is that you need.

Perhaps just walk away for a few days and go bush. Some periods of life are just darn hard and you gotta live them. No expectations.

You dont have to interact or fulfil any obligation but nourishing yourself and very nearest and dearest. We might be going away for a and in Feb... do you guys want to stay here? X