I have been at the very bottom of life, where everywhere I look—left and right—all I see is trouble haunting me. Most days, I feel heavy because life treats each of us based on what we give to it. I wish I could stop feeling down under the burden I carry daily, but this weight won't end until I change the things that pull me under.
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I have felt the end of life inside me—moments when I wanted to vanish from the earth. But looking closely at that dark curiosity, I realize it’s not time yet. Every low hits differently depending on what you're losing. Whenever I hit that absolute floor, I ask myself one thing:
"I am down, but what does this feel like, and what good can I do from where I am?"
I might stay in this lowest point until I figure out what to do with it. The world keeps moving and time doesn't pause for anyone. I don't need to stop moving forward, even when I lose everything I tried to build.
And man, I have lost a lot of money. Money fades and moves on to whoever knows how to make it stay. I missed the tactics of money and watched it vanish into thin air. We all want growth, and the only way is putting resources where they can actually yield a return.
Loved ones move on, and time makes it more vivid. You wish to be with someone forever, but fate takes us on different paths and pulls us sideways. Watching a loved one fade into a void where you won't have them anymore is the hardest part of life. You just have to accept that maybe they needed to go.
The lowest point hits differently—it either comes to rebuild us or destroy us. From my experience, it rebuilt me into the man I am meant to be. I may not fully be what I originally wanted, but I am what I needed to be. In the end, becoming what we needed is the only reason we find peace with whatever life we have left.