If I were in your shoes, I will choose my freedom. Yes, today money is everything, but I would rather have my peace of mind over something that makes me feel anxious. Like they said, we only love once that is why we need to live our life to the fullest, to enjoy our life and especially to have our freedom. It is not easy at first but try to choose yourself, try to get out in your comfort zone and you will know. I know Im not expert for like this topic but I know you will understand me on why I choose my freedom. I hope this comment of mine will help you even if it just a little to finally choose what's your heart desire. Thank you for giving us an opportunity to get from us our opinion. Keep praying and ask for some guidance. Stay loved and positive 😊