Teardrops: SHE LEFT ME

SHE LEFT ME

Who am I?
-if I'm not yours to keep.
Where should I go?
-if you're not where I should stay.
Tell me how can I forget.
All the details of you.

We fought, that night.
The storm was raging in my mind.
I slipped and my words stabbed you.
I said -leave, leave me alone.
I was devoured by a dark cloud
and pushed you out, of my life.

I am blinded, by my rage
I am stoned by my ego
I spit my pain and scarred your heart
You were nothing.
You were nothing to me now.
It's over, please leave.

The sun came out and hit my sore eye. I reached out to the other side in hopes of feeling your love.
I had a dream, a bad dream. I slowly opened my eyes, I know you'd be here.
Because no matter how many times I asked you to leave me, you will always come back.
I smiled and looked at your direction.
Why? Where are you?
Why aren't you here by now?

I searched the room and found.
Your presence still lingers around.

You left your smile in every cups._
You left your laugh in this room._
You left your hugs on my mirror.
Your scent in this pillow.
Your footprints in my mind.
And your kiss in my life.

I received a call.
The worst call I've ever had.
It's not from you.
But it's because of you.
I hurried towards you.
I need to see you.

It's just you, you and you on my mind.

I prayed and prayed.
This can't be true.
It can't be you.
---and then I finally found you.
In a cold room, lying.
Dying.

I didn't mean it!
How could you leave me like that?
Why don't you come back
like you always do after a fight?
I waited all night.
I know you'd be back!!

Please come back..

It's not really suitable for a poetry, it's almost more like a story.

We all come to a time where we push our loved ones away, over something petty or a big fight.
But, here's an advice. If you were going through rough times, just stop spitting angry words towards each other. Cool down, just stay away for a while. There's no need to hurt each other any more further. The storm will calm down and you will be okay again. BUT, the words you said will always remain in their minds. It is easy to say anything but once it has been said and done, it won't be that easy to forget and forgive.

So take the initiative to stop and cool down before anything gets worse. You were not entitled to still have them tomorrow. They are not obliged to stay with you until tomorrow so don't push them away. Realize each other's worth before it's too late.

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Photo is mine

Words and photo by @queenie48