That was a very interesting and enjoyable read.... You made me do a few things, like checking what gaslighting is (ghee, really? are you that bad hahaha) and your sculpturing (you've done the professional house design con-structural thingy as well). WOW, the sound of this band of yours 'Narcissus and the Goldmen' is for sure something that could've done well, I liked what I was hearing at least :) Though I never played in a band, am not a musician of any sort, I relate to what you say about all members in the group shall take their responsibilities, ie being team players. Wether it are the recreational drugs or anything else that makes someone not so reliable, doesn't matter in the end. The darn thing is that those we believe are super in what they do, may in reality not have the needed personality to contribute to the project in a positive and sustainable manner. Have a few of those experiences where I wanted something to work with a small group of good people, but in the end it didn't because of the lack of passion which resulted in not being there when one need to be there. All that leads to frustrations and eventually to a breakup. Seems you are the creative guy from left to right with not only the stone sculpturing, but also the iron thingies I see on your website. Any chance you gonna pick up this type of art while in Portugal? Or maybe trying to create a new band?