The last 7 months, and maybe 29 days, have been series of experiences: school felt like I was fighting a war, my head was most times like a gas in a closed cylinder, with the gas particles jumping around hitting the inner walls of the cylinder. Final year project had started way before school resumed session, we all thought we were special and would really get to experience the practical aspect of being an Animal Geneticist, but what was waiting for us seemed greater than we expected.
It was a long, rough, stressful, painful, crazy, fun, impactful and a blessing at some point. Very close to the end of the field project if over 6 months, we were threatened to start all over. I mean, starting over the whole money spent of feeding the animals, the costs of transportation, management of health and mental health? All over? After hearing that, I ran to my room occasionally, lay on the floor to pray and cry. How can one start a hardship of 6 months all over again. Thanks to God, the man that stood in our way changed his mind and all he had convinced.
Well lately, it seems as though the input, energy and time invested into many things are not enough and, this is not a problem of laziness neither a problem of not doing it right or long enough. You are caught up in few things yet it's as if you've got a whole lot of things to handle. Responsibilities, even those that used to be easy peasy feels like heavy ones all because of one factor.
Being a final year student who is about to graduate from the University is another life that seems to come with a special pack of feelings. No matter how much you have heard about finalists, their schedules and activities, there are many untold stories, feelings that you won't hear: it has to be experienced.
School is a very good system, though not so perfect in this era we're in. A place to connect with like minded people, grow with the ones you've chosen as friends, have countless series of fun, good and bad days with colleagues, you get updates of what's happening around the world, a lot of fun activities, life changing events and moments..... But the activities from school can be overwhelming.
Yet, the activities of school concerning finalists seems to be intentional. The pressure from school is real and it has been seen as normal for the school authorities and lecturers, why? It's because they have been doing it for years and now it seems normal. I have been experiencing this and it will all end soon and never come back.
Well, one thing I've come to realize not too long ago is to not find a way to run or complain, or rant or suck about any uncomfortable or tough thing that can't be escaped. Rather, I learnt and I have proven it that it is way better to face it head on, ignore the urge to want to complain, rant or lackadaisical concerning it, especially when it has to do with something important to one's life.
Firstly, I have accepted that this is final year and it has been like this from years back. I admit that it is tough, doing this configures my mind and brain to be ready to face it heads on. I have been doing this more and it has been helping me to get a lot of seemingly difficult things done faster, better and more ease. Not easy, but it is achievable.
Life isn't easy, won't go and has never gone easy on any man. You'd have to face it and fight for what you believe you deserve. Problems are meant to be solved not ignored. Not a motivation, yes it is tough but don't back down until it feels like what you desire and want for yourself.
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