Astral Light (May 24, 2016 10:18:16 GMT -5)
‎Celine O'carroll‎post in the forum from William Shimoda..............I have to thank Donald for triggering my awakening. Ive spent so many hours trying to figure what the fuck happened to me as a kid.the rage that could tear this world in half. The constant testing trying to break me, trying to turn me into a sick fuck like them. I never understood why they're were so evilthe things they did to me, horrible unspeakable things that left me a shadow of person in waking life. Honestly if i hadn't been a kid I don't think i would have made it.I was writing a story that involved all of these elements, the clones, the fighting, nazis, dream communication. I got pages of rough draft material of what I thought was a crazy, really interesting, yet dark story that I never finished because of the dark place it put me. Then I heard your interview...damn what a fucking mind fuck.The things I did in my REM state really made me question what kind of person I was. They finally broke me, not after all the sexual shit, but when they would drug me and make me do the most horrible things and make me remember it in real life I would pray so hard for them not to take me. But every night, the face would come out of the darkness. I would pray so hard for them not to take me. But every night, the face would come out of the darkness.When they broke me, I remember fighting in the arena, just the dirt mainly and the crowd vaguely, mostly how cold and ruthless I was, the power of the darkside coursing through me after a another kill. That scared the shit out of me in my waking life, like i was barely human anymore. I died so many times, seeing the blackness, having to give into death, then waking up in bed my thread of life so thin i felt if i sneezed i would die.Oh well its been a rough couple of days for me. I worked so hard to push that shit out of my life because I had no where to put it, no one to talk to about it, and God didn't seem to care. But it's time for me to face this.Thank you Donald for having the courage to tell your story. I have a feeling you and I didn't get along back in those days. I turned into quite the freak show after they broke me, I remember thinking you were weak and pathetic. I'm sorry for killing you all those times. I think I was their one of their favorites as I was a completely ruthless fuck. It was like i was killing myself everytime I did it.Sorry brotherLaurence Mountford "I'm sorry for killing you all those times"... Whoever this guy was he better hope he was memory suppressed.Laurence Mountford Nothing good ever comes from messin' with don at the cloning center. Hashtag: Doomed Soul.Lysander Stevenson Noticed he also says "Love & Light" (or, love, light and victory specifically) in the posts under it logged on as "William - guest". I would say there is a lot of redeeming and a lot of learning to be done here..... It's like Don says, there will be a lot of people begging for forgiveness.