quidditas (May 2, 2016 16:51:10 GMT -5)
I'm a perfectly healthy 26 year old man, mentally, physically and emotionally. I've had a very strange life however. I won't go into complete detail so I don't ward away the seriousness of my inquiry in any way. I was a pagan. Devout pagan of the Nordic mythological caste. I never had any reason to truly believe in anything demonic or angelic. I retired from the military and fell away from Asatru beliefs delving more-so into the purely occult / Aleister Crowley / ancient Sumerian / Babylonian mystic side of things. Things started to get weird.... Every night for a few months I would be awakened by a presence in the room as I layed in bed with my wife at the time. A terrifying evil presence unlike anything I've ever felt. But I would be paralyzed completely unable to move a muscle in my terror. Before I knew it I would be freed and aparantly "awakened" without memory of anything beyond that though I felt certain I wasn't really asleep. This continued for months until I quit sleeping in my bed. I would stay awake all night on my couch awaiting daylight. It would subside. But I couldn't keep this up, I discounted it as merely dreams or hallucinations or some REM sleep defect. It began to happen less frequently and I would again sleep in my bed. I resigned myself to being of an evil nature to give myself power burning pentagrams in my yard at night etc as I lived in the middle of swampland in N. FL surrounded by hundreds of acres of cowfield. The constant feeling of being watched / "dreams" subsided Until one night when I was home alone on Christmas Eve. This is where I need some answers if Donald or anyone can give any. I decided to go to bed early and fell asleep in my bed alone in my 4 bedroom house, leaving all the lights on in the room and the ceiling fan on "just in case" I would know if I was asleep or awake if something just so happened to occur again (I was always caught off guard by it... In all the moments I remember that flash behind my eyes I never kept the lights on because someone was usually in bed with me) it might help ward that presence away. My head was slightly propped up by my pillows. I become comfortable and complacent. My eyes sink and I lose my consciousness. then BAM... I'm awake and frozen just like usual..... only my head is propped up still and I notice all the lights are on and I can see my ceiling fan spinning. Then I feel it..... The most terrible feeling I've ever had in my life... I've been to combat in Iraq, I've almost been kidnapped and raped by child molesters, Me and my mom and dad were to be murdered while camping in the mountains of Idaho, yet nothing I've ever experienced made me feel like this. I wanted to scream and cry and destroy every single thing around me I could find out of sheer fear. But I couldn't even blink. Then I saw it...... I'd never seen anything in that state before. A 7 1/2 - 8 ft tall grey humanoid, slightly hunched forward with arms almost as long as his entire body casually walked through my doorway past the foot of my bed..... making his way to the left side of the bed where I lay. Needless to say after that things become fuzzy.... as I'm sure if I had control over my body I would've shit myself pissed myself, and tried to bite it's throat out with every bit of insanely fearful fury I could conjure in my 180 lbs. But I was helpless, my vision blurry from the tears. It loomed over me, I just remember seeing it's hand over my face. After that all I can remember is almost breaking free from whatever crazy freezy-shit it had me under.... I arched my back and could raise my arms a bit.... trying to reach this thing to hurt it and get it away from me.... n just as I broke free I could lean up and had full control again...... it was gone.... I had tears down my face and sweat all over my body.... It had just happened I was sure. No dream. I also thought that big motherfucker could still be in the house..... so as quietly as I could I grabbed my mossberg from under the bed, my phone and the only key I had on my nightstand which was to a shitty isuzu my brother-in-law sold me.... and SPRINTED through my house weapon shouldered ready for discharge.... leaving my garage door open, front door open, hopping in the isuzu truck.... I stuck the key in as quickly as I could and tried to get it to crank.... after trying 5 or 6 times WEARILY looking in every fucking dark direction around my vehicle which was inconveniently parked 100 ft from my dark ass house in my dark ass yard..... it cranked and I drove to the only place with lights on in the ENTIRETY OF MY COUNTY on christmas eve..... Wal-mart parking lot.... and stayed there until afternoon on christmas day.anyway..... I've heard you talk about Tall Greys being Reptilian in nature.....I'm not sure what a tall grey is supposed to look like...But this motherfucker was very very tall.... very thin.... grey / black..... and wanted to do some shit to me for some reason....What do you think it was.... what did it want..... It's the last time I've had that experience... when I saw it..... it was 5 years ago and I've never had even a nightmare since then.....My father is a drug addict whom I just recently met...... he also has related a similar experience to me after we became familiar..... is it genetics?? WTF I can't account for my father.... but I know I'm not insane or mentally unstable..... n didn't even smoke weed then. (I sure as fuck do now)Just give me some insight please.... anyone