I was not so sure whether I will write such kind of post or not but finally decided to write something about my emotions. Since yesterday night, I am feeling very sick because of the temperature. My sinusitis problem increased again and I am suffering a lot. At night, I couldn't even sleep properly and can't relax anymore. Sickness sucks and when you are sick, you don't feel like doing, eating anything in fact you will be messed up your entire day because of overthinking.
I have a very bad habit and that is overthinking. No matter how much I try, I can't stop overthinking and taking stress. It's my childhood problem and the entire situation causes me low blood pressure too. I have tried a lot of things to overcome this overthinking issue but somehow every day is not the same as expected. Some life situations force me to think and to find a solution as well.
I guess the most common stress among humans is money crisis and responsibilities. Who doesn't face a financial crisis right? Everybody faces more or less. Another fact I wanna mention that when you are having a financial crisis if you ask for help or support from your closest one, they will deny you indirectly. I hate asking for help when it comes to deal with a financial crisis. I better prefer eating less but I won't ask for money to anyone.
I am a little bit stable now more than before as I have done some savings for the future. Also, I am hoping the projects I have completed so far will provide some financial help as well. The world economic system is broken and everybody wants an employee who won't ask for salary now or less salary. Some projects payment is still pending and every week I write to them as well. If you don't pay me timely, I won't complete the work too, I have learned this professional dealing when I was working in a consultancy firm.
Yes, recently I sold some hive to pay my bills and grocery. Honestly speaking I sell hive when I need or when I have to fulfill my necessity instead of asking for money from Dad. Better I use my own asset rather than hearing a large lecture from family.
I remember the first time when I came here to Ukraine, I had to deal with the money crisis too. That crisis happened because of my agent and his fraudulent activities. I can't forget that moment how I was going through such mental pressure. But that pressure taught me to become mature, keep patience, and think calmly. Now, you must be thinking about how I have dealt with that situation, hmm some project works and crypto saved me that time. Truth is nobody helped me at that time when I needed even my family was helpless too...
But everything sorted out later...
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