Many times, I have found myself in this situations too and I just let go, watch a movie because I would utter something like, "well, it isn't my way yet. It's not for me. I can't kill myself" of course it doesn't stop me from trying again.
I always see every disappointment as a blessing, this I came to realise later in life when I saw how having bad thoughts could disrupt my mind and keep me stuck in not trying something.