My bad life is, the world does not really care about you. They consider you just leave this earth and the world will keep moving without you.
You will live your last ordinary day and the world will keep moving. Most of what you try so far today wouldn't matter then. If you can't change it, leave it. If you can't change it, take the right action. So let it go.
Life is too short to spend time waiting for the perfect moment or whining over things you are not privileged to or you cannot longer get. Focus on what you can achieve, the best you can get, the things you can do for yourself.
And don't ever back off for how our life has always been.
I mean, life has always been in that moment where you build what you can build and leave what you cannot build because once you're dead, nothing concerns you.