So, I have had two weeks off Steemit. And even I am not quite sure why or how that happened!
I think that I was just in a massive rebellion against my chosen path.
Sometimes I work at cross-purposes to my own self. I get scared; I get bored; I get distracted; I forget.
Well actually, I choose those outcomes, obviously. :-) (Taking Responsibility, remember?)
So let's break it down and look at what happened; why; and what to do about it.
I'll post more about this in an upcoming 'Taking Responsibility' but essentially my reason for doing something has to be strong enough to keep me going as I encounter the inevitable obstacles and desire to quit on myself for an easier life.
How this manifests itself is that I really want to do something - I might even tell other people that I want to do something - and then I spend an appreciable amount of time doing something else, perhaps even the opposite of what I said I wanted.
What I can do about this is:
If I do those three things, it takes the thinking out of the task and makes it easier for me to Just Do It.
I get daunted, intimidated, doubtful, fearful and sometimes downright scared. I'm here to tell myself that this is all OK and to just keep going and Just Do It anyway.
How this manifests is that I doubt myself and go through a lot of negative self-talk about this being too much, too difficult, too complicated etc. Or doubting my own abilities to do the things required to get to the goal; doubting my ability to remember to work on progressing towards this goal.
What I can do about it is:
I'm a teacher in my day job. I teach hundreds of children each day and I am trained to look out for and respond to students who show signs of needing encouragement or accountability in order to achieve their current goal. So naturally I think that I must be able to do this for myself all of the time, even though I work with people on a daily basis who prove this notion wrong time and time again.
How this manifests itself is that I tell myself that I don't need the help that I teach to others because I must know how to do it for myself if I can teach it to others.
What I can do about this is:
So there you have it, my tentative steps towards a bit more of the essential self-knowledge and self-awareness that I am looking for so that I can reach my goals.
