That is a pretty broad question, isn't it? It's been something I have been contemplating over a lot lately. I am not sure if because it's that time of year where the days are shorter & are growing colder. Or it could be that we are nearing the end of a decade & about to embark on a new one. However, reflection on deeper things has been occupying my mind lately...
I have been feeling solid in my path & a sense of purpose. The spiritual journey I have been on for a little over 4 years has been full of ups & downs, growing & learning as I go. Certain things are no longer abstract concepts like they used to be. Miracles, both little and big, have occurred. I feel blessed to be going through this human existence we call life...
This didn't happen overnight (& I still have a long ways to go), but I realized something today...I made a choice. I made the choice to change my story.
I had been feeling tired, listless, even lethargic & just clouded in my thoughts. Even though I do have a few physical ailments, it wasn't caused by that. It was a feeling of being "stuck", wondering if what I had been doing this year really mattered. Now, of course, I know it does logically, but when one gets into their head too much, the thoughts can contradict themselves.
So, I meditated, breath work, prayed, thought, journaled & watched a lot of Netflix (don't judge lol). Then I remember a quote I posted the other day...
See, we all have a story, our own perception of ourselves & our reality. You have heard me talk about this before, but it's something to ponder. What story do you tell yourself? What is your reality?
We go from day to day doing the same routines, whether they help us or not. It's something we can control & that we are comfortable with. That's why some of us stay in negative situations because it's what is expected from others or we feel there is no other alternative.
It's easier to say what we want & dream of things we want to accomplish. Some of us start out with good intentions to change things, but then when we fall short of our own expectations, we retreat to the safety of our comfort cocoon & repeat the old routines once again.
Failure scares us. The unknown fills us with fear. We can't control these things. When we are told to let go, we grip on tighter. So, we live in a mundane existence or at least one that isn't up to our full potential. But it is never too late to change the story; the dialogue we have with ourselves.
Turn around the "I can'ts" to "I am". Look at yourself in the mirror & instead of seeing the shortcomings, look at your strengths even if you have to search for it.
We are worth as much as we tell ourselves, even if others see our worth. It all starts from within and, as tired as we may be of hearing it, we know it's true when we get down to it.
If you don't like your story, change it. Two people had it right:
Wizard Of Oz, Glinda
YODA, Star Wars Episode V: The Empire Strikes Back
When I had that small epiphany this morning, I knew my life is already changing. Because of one small tweak in my perspective, I shifted to another path in life. A new story...
I can't wait to see how it turns out ;)
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