Thank you so much for the response. I fully understand what you mean about the protect, not do other things. It took a very long time for me to even trust another being. You can probably walk into a crowded room and over half will have some sort of anxiety or depression hidden under the surface. I like that you turn to music to help pull through some of it. I find relaxing music, but sometimes I will play something with loudness to it in an attempt to make the thoughts go away. It is sad that teens and adults alike think they are alone, so they hold it all in. I lost a teen niece a few years ago due to suicide. It broke everyone's heart because not one person knew what was wrong, or not that spoke up about knowing. May God help those who struggle with depression and show them they are not alone. I am grateful to have come across you and your post/comment and will follow.