That was a heavy read. Heavy and gloomy. Putting aside the main theme of the post, I cannot believe the amount of hardship you were through in your let´s say first 20 years. I remember your freewrite called Down the rabbit hole from the last year or so. I really really wish you will spend the rest of your life with a loving person on your side who will protect you and care for you to make up for all the crazy ugly stuff you experienced. You are an oustandingly strong and courageous girl, Jo.