I feel so deranged, broken and my heart refuses to beat,
It's like a broken mirror after several patches, still it doesn't fit,
I hoped for that cool breeze but all i got was heat,
It was said that; no retreat, no surrender,
Those words kept echoing in my ears., like a music on repeat,
I hummed like a bee, i gave a dit,
The birds in the air could hear my melody, so sweet,
Slowly and quickly, what an oxymoron; i was falling into a pit,
Which doesn't even have a place to lay my head, a place to sit,
It's as though i had accepted defeat.
I became so pale, so bleak,
It was as if my heart had a crack; like it began to leak,
You could say i became weaker than the weak,
That vibe, that Joy, everything that made me unique were all gone within a week,
I suddenly start to fall sick,
My hands i begin to bite; my lips, i began to lick,
I looked like a sheep about to be slaughtered, unfortunately like the dove, i wasn't meek,
I was open to all errors, all my flaws., the devil knew and he began to speak,
I wished i could attain that greatness, reach that peak,
Then time began to count down, the clock began to tick,
With haste, hope; i began to seek,
In my ears were words of derogatory; i fell for his trick,
Inside of me somehow, the devil managed to sneak,
Everything happened as if it was planned, so quick,
I feel so stupid, just like a total freak,
I tried gathering together the pieces left of me like a damaged stick,
It's as seen in a movie that's epic,
One who was once a geek,
Her appearance; extraordinarily slick,
Not easily rough-handled, very thick,
Someone who's difficult to be broken, like a concrete brick,
Suddenly is beseeched like a chick,
Entreated with so much inflict, so much wreak,
One who used to be a derrick,
All the ridicules became drastic,
I was stepped on, called all sorts of unbefitting names, names so antic,
Leading to my mental instability and was rushed to a clinic.
Oh jeez,
My feeble mind got lighter than the passing breeze,
My heart then begins to freeze,
Me., the devil tried to seize,
So quickly, through my lungs, came a violent sneeze,
I was a helpless creation, so I struggled so hard looking for who would give my arm a sympathetic squeeze,
And when i try to inhale, my chest cold made me wheeze.
The devil finally let me go and i heard a voice telling me to pray,
I glimpsed through my window and lo; it was still night and not day,
I wanna travel far away,
Cos with me; i had no one to play,
Wished I could stay,
Wished to me; someone could say,
But nay ,
There's a price i must pay,
All my life, I've always gone astray,
Most of which caused me my life that I was even examined with X-ray,
I will not be easily defeated or slay.
While i am there,
And God is here,
I will just look up the sky and say, i know you are somewhere,
Certainly, I've got nothing to fear,
Though it seems like He's not near,
But i really don't care,
What am sure of is that, His type is so rare,
The devil only came to play with me, a game of truth or Dare,
Making life seem so cruel and unfair.
