"My heart kept beating fast like it was going to explode, hitting against its pericardium like there is a tamponade and the pressure at which the blood running in vein was moving was more 700mgHg while I covered my eyes with my hands scared what they might see if opened, my mind was busy travelling all over everywhere and barely thinking of a thing and my brain was busy processing what comment it’s going to be…. at that moment it was like everything stood still”.
Earlier that day, I had submitted a suggestion for the inclusion of a feature in a browsing application on the utopian site and have been scared of checking if it has been accepted/not because of all of my previous applications has been rejected and I had made up my mind earlier that day that, this particular suggestion would be the last if rejected.
After a lot of persuasions, I finally summoned the courage to check it, I could hardly breathe while signing to my account scared of the unknown, lots of fear plus doubts run through my mind as I was scrolling down my blog.
"YES! YES!! YES!!! It has been approved”, I shouted.Immediately, I flung my phone on my bed, ran like Usain bolt did in Olympics, but mine has no direction like Isaac Newton described electron that are excited (harphazardly), and I was just jumping and shouting that got some people in the neighbourhood out and my friends were just looking at me like an insane man that just got loose from a psychiatric hospital. “Well I don’t blame them, only if they knew what and how have been feeling they would join me” I thought.
Its not that I’m smart its just that I stay with problems longer” Albert Eistein
Because after several trials and attempt, after series of dark days and nights, several editing and designing, and after lots of “your contribution can not be approved, because it is trivial” or “your contribution can not e approved because it does not follow utopian rules…..” and finally I was finally approved.
And not only that I was approved but the approval came at the right time, the crucial time at which all I needed was a bit of “ginger” i.e stimulant/push to keep me going because at those moments of disapproval and rejections I almost lost hope and gave up on utopian and for the first time ever in my life I thought something was not meant for me.
Indeed it was one of my weakest moment in life that I was really in doubt of myself If I could do something but thank God I did not lose hope and belief and it all paid in the end and I believe that it will still pay because am not there yet. And it does not mean am never going to be rejected again but am never going to back down again, I’m going to keep pushing hard and keep the fight up because in those moments are where lies the strength.
Because a wise man once said “that without trials and tribulations you might not know your true self because it is in those periods you actually find yourself”.
Julie Andrews said “perseverance is failing 19times and succeeding the20th.”
After all Newt Gingrich said “Perserverance is the harwork you do after you get tired of doing the hard work you already did”
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