You are not the only one who made ridiculous decisions... we all did... many times...

I hope the unconventional says I've choosen will pay off for me.

It can be worse than what's happening to the rest of the people... It's funny, but it's true! So many shit is happening and many people are not even aware of it... You at least know that, and you realized it before others... 😉 That gives you an advantage...