It looks that your thinking about the numbers is taking you all the time that you can use to invest in yourself or something much more productive...

I have similar thoughts sometimes, and it's very often distracting me from actually DOING real things... Try to get out of that and try to add 1 more thing more to your agenda every week... As I can see you have done blog posts 4 days in a row... That's awesome! Try not to break that custom, and add something new for this week.

And regarding the money that you CAN earn... There is a quote in my language that says: "Do not cook the rabbit that is still running in the forest" :)

I wish you that you earn a ton of money and that your biggest problem is how to spend it :)

Have a great week!