Some days it just doesn't matter how much you want to move forward with your chin up. There will be tests that rattle your resolve. There will be people that drag your faith in humanity through the mud. You know that after all the falls and sadnesses you hoped that this time would be different, but here you are again in front of that very familiar door of disappointment.
These are the times that you tell yourself to keep faith, be strong, don't judge too harshly and hold on to your humanity, not always that easy.
Well, maybe a daydream about winning the lottery will help, about those really happy days during your childhood when falling in love was new, everything was paid for and you weren't responsible for too much more than shaking your ass at the dancehall.
Life creeps up on you and the fun just seem to disappear somehow doesn't it. Lucky if you have love that lasts because that at least could help you through many of life's ups and downs, but even that is guaranteed and as for people, while how many of them smile at you through their teeth with a dagger behind their back. Hmmmm
I'm at a strange junction between needing stability and wanting the freedom to make the decisions I know I can trust. A place from where I can't be told what to do by people who say they know better, but when the pudding gets proofed there's a burn in the pot. So now it's about finding a balance between the need and the want, it won't be easy, but must be done.
Steemit, it's been a great break from the mundane and my own little place daydream of what might be in ten years if I pull myself toward myself and say to myself "self, more effort self".
Thank you to all of you who have read my boring posts and enjoyed my music with me. Thank you for those who give me votes and send gifts, you guys are awesome. Bless you
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