When a fence penetrates you then maybe you should sit on a wall?
“Remember, it is not enough to be hit or insulted to be harmed, you must believe that you are being harmed. If someone succeeds in provoking you, realize that your mind is complicit in the provocation. Which is why it is essential that we not respond impulsively to impressions; take a moment before reacting, and you will find it easier to maintain control.”
Epictetus, The Art of Living: The Classical Manual on Virtue, Happiness and Effectiveness
Although that quote has nothing to do with the lines preceding it, I thought it would make me seem smart.
Awe fuck
I had a lot more oompf to keep ranting 20minutes earlier, but inbetween the title and the line before it, I got distracted. Fucked up my linux install, learnt some new screen commands and got that little bitch thing back up and running.
So where was I.
Oh sitting on a wall because I do not like being anally impaled while someone is provoking me. I don't mind them provoking me, but seriously having wire cut my ass is not what I call a good time... Now how deep is it cutting? Is it a nice kind of sore? Is it at that point where it could hurt a hell of a lot more but is perfectly situated that it is more stimulating?
Ah the thoughts, and why is this prick yelling? Why am I on the fucking fence when there is a wall right next to it? Ah the wall is on a side, isn't it? This fence sure is comfy though. How about I slowly destroy the fence then climb the wall, and since there is no fence the wall is not on any side but is the new middle.
This guy is very persistent with the yelling, very rude also. He is not even helping to remove any of the fence poles or nothing. Oh, you wanna get slappy now. Bitchboi, I will fuck your ass up. You are very lucky I am busy with this fence.
I would have said that if I did not find him so amusing, anyway I still don't know what the ruckus is about. Best to let him do his thing while I do my thing and get on my damn wall. At least he can't reach on the wall and I can kick him in the face if he tries to jump.
Ok, fence removed. Now I can get on the wall.
Mmmm, this mofo is a bit like a zombie. "Dude, you can climb up but no hitting ok!"
Fucking idiot, just following me as I walk across the wall yelling about random shit. What is that?
Another one?
On the other side?
Ooooh, look ahead.
There is a gap, I know.
Since they are both so damn passionate about stuff and I need a damn break from them trying to get me to choose a side.
Ah, there you go, now where is that sandwich of no fucks given I had. Here it is.
Look at them fighting down there, all I have to do is keep them at it. Now both have some fair points but it is so damn black and white with these people.
Tom over there says that "People should never do this or that thingamajig." He sounds very serious about whatever that is. Now obviously it goes without saying that Suzie this side - ignore that it use to be a man - finds anything Tom points out as a grievous attack on herself.
Me, I am learning enough about both, whether either is right is not really the question. If I acted before against the dude now named Suzie then the consequences would be an inconvenience. Especially since the problem was a lowly fence.
So now I am sitting on a wall.
Having my no fucks given sandwich.
Well, as a matter of fact, it is not "no fucks given", it is just no fucks that would matter or benefit. Not to the extent that the two raging fools below are concerned. It is fewer fucks given because the point is to get to the mountain over yonder.
Right after my sandwich.
Then maybe, I will choose a side to live on. Then maybe I will choose what I want to control when insulted or attacked. Then maybe I might just decide that I want my world coloured black and white instead of just enjoy unlimited shades of grey to entertain me while others try not to step on the wrong colour block.