It’s simpler to be small. You sleep, you wake, you work, you sleep. Nobody is coming for you because you’re not coming for much.
But when you have a big dream, when you see something in your mind that hasn’t happened yet but you can’t stop thinking about it, that’s different. It’s not that those people are any smarter than you. They’re mostly just stubborn. And yes, that can sound very noble but trust me, it’s mostly very fucked up.
My uncle wanted to start a palm oil processing company. He had the dream part down. He talked about it for months. He convinced someone to lend him money. But then he had to wake up every morning to make it happen. And that’s where the whole thing fell apart. He believed too much in his ability and he forgot that ability without discipline is nothing.
Dreaming is a fun thing to do. It makes you feel special. I can dream of the perfect life without paying any price and infact sometimes I feel literally happy imagining the glorious moments.
And that's the thing, dreaming isn’t hard. Anyone can do it. A six year old can do it. What makes the big people big isn’t the size of the dream, it’s the ability to endure all the days when nothing seems to be happening. When you made a plan and you trusted the plan but the plan isn’t working and you have to figure out what went wrong without nobody cheering you on. They say trust the process but while you're in it, it's hell.
And sometimes you do all of that and it still doesn’t work. I’ve seen it happen to so many people around me. People who did all the right things and still lost because of bad timing or bad luck or both.
Maybe the cliché is the wrong way round. Maybe it’s not that big people dream big, perhaps it’s dreaming big makes you big whether you like it or not. The dream is what pushes and stretches you way past your comfort zone.
Or maybe I’m overthinking this concept. Maybe it really is that simple, dream, trust, show up. And just keep doing that until something breaks or until something breaks through.
I still don’t know which one is more difficult, the trusting or the showing up part.
