You might want to contact someone who actually has a background in psych and learn what the hell PTSD actually is, kid. Here's a clue: low tolerance for ignorant bullshit from self-righteous baizuai's isn't typically symptomatic.

By the way, if you want to remedy your glaring dearth of knowledge about that God-forsaken hive of filth you live in, Shanghai Foreign Languages Bookstore on Fuzhou Road (about a ten minute walk from East Nanjing Road Station) would be a good place to start, long as the Party hasn't shut it down. They have all manner of delightfully twisted and arrogant Sinophiliac nonsense, written in China, by China, for China, and translated into English so the entire world can know exactly how dark the collective mind of that society truly is, and the government themselves sells it, without a trace of irony.

Of course, your comments indicate to me that the whole "reading" thing is probably not your strong suit, but give it a try. Then come back and spout some more drivel about asking who has a soul.