Last Sunday in October, last yellow leafs on trees, winter time is here.
I love autumn, I think it's the best time in a year.
I like the change to another season, it's always so exciting. New chapter, I'm always hoping for finding new love, getting a dream job or just getting new ideas about travels.
Before one month I came back home from Italy, where I lived for half a year and worked as au-pair. I was afraid to go back home, my heart was telling me "Are you crazy? You are happy in Italy, stay here, don't do any change, just stay and be happy." But my brain was saying the opposite, for my future, it just was good decision to move away.
Often I'm thinking about Italy, people I miss, places I want to see again, the food I need to eat again, again and again.
But truth is that I'm surprisingly so happy to be back here, the thing is that I never was happy here so I didn't expect to be ever happy here. But it doesn't matter where we are, just matter about us how we feel in our body with our personality, if we are happy with the way we are if we like everything on ourself we can be happy anywhere. It can be Africa, Russia, Canada, Florida, Mexico or just home. Sure here's things which can make us a bit happier like our partner, or nice views to nature, beaches, good food, wine... small thing or big things everyone has that differently. But these things will give us the happiness just for a short time, that's not what we are looking for. We want to be happy always and anywhere.
I believe that lots of you guys were grown up with selflove, you are just happy the way you are and you even don't have to think about this. But I didn't, I just remember that everyone were telling me that I'm not good enough because I'm not so tiny, or I'm so tall, I'm not good in Math, not so fast and much more things.
It took me a while to change these words in my head, forgot them and start to love myself with the small or bigger mistakes.
I don't think that I'm already done with this, but the fact is that I'm happy like I never was before, and it doesn't matter if I'm in Italy or in Czech Republic, if it's summer or autumn, if I eat pizza or strawberry dumplings.
I love and I'm happy!
So love yourself, numero what! <3
