It is so essential to respect, love and adore one's parents Vibi.

My mom died in a car accident in 1981 and I still miss her terribly to this day.
My estranged father died a few years later and all six of his sons were the coffin carriers at his funeral. Me and his 5 other sons.

I see that you have a great love for your parents and it is as it should be.
Blessings!