Many work environments are psychotic. No one can bring their best self, for a variety of reasons. I have found that there is usually a psycho in charge in these places. Psycho's know how to bring out the worst in people, and use that as their management strategy, turning everyone against everyone else. Enough about me.

I'm sorry to hear you found yourself in such a place. There are more and more of them around now, fear guides all actions. Congratulations for making it out intact.

Alone, I would definitely choose alone as well. Let me be with myself, and still.