Drowning in a sea of tears

I'm sitting here crying my eyes out,
Unable to handle the distress of life,
All I can handle doing now is to pout,
Too much in my life causing great strife.

Tears are streaming down my face,
flowing due to failure and regret,
I wish I could take my life at my own pace,
but hardships is all that life beget.

I cannot handle the darkness I hold within,
each regret and every little solitary sin,
I'm awaiting the courage to chuck my life,
completely ending myself with a knife.

For now I drown in my sorrow and pain,
I've already reach the point to be insane,
I have nothing left in life to gain,
I want to drive down the road in the wrong lane.

You might think my life is rather plain,
but you don't understand my pain,
"but others are worse off than you" you say
That doesn't help, makes me want to disobey

I know the are others worse off,
It doesn't help me any at all,
Choking on my tears makes me cough,
The Grief I feel makes me bawl.

It's never enough to say I'm sorry,
It's not anything you've done.
You're right though, to worry,
Off to the land of death I'll run.

I'm screaming for help,
In ways you've never felt,
Pain you've never dealt,
Emotional pain like being beaten with a belt.

I'm tired now, I'm oh so tired.
Free me from this prison of life,
Set me ablaze, tell me I'm fired,
End my suffering and my strife.